Anthony "Anton"

routine

Mon, 22 Jun 2009 22:27:08 GMT

Originally published at an attempt.. Please leave any comments there.

Being back in Long Island, back in May, was a bit tough at first, and I realized it was mainly due to a lack of a set routine. At school, it was pretty set into my head, but the sudden change of environment and need to get settled really screwed it up… but now, I’m back in it… here’s what it looks like here at home:

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run&ruck

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 05:45:18 GMT

Originally published at an attempt.. Please leave any comments there.

Lately I’ve been training up for my stint in Fort Benning coming this July. The main thing that has worried me is the 20K Ruck March in 3 hours. It’s the last event before graduation. If you fail it, you get one more chance, but if you fail twice, you don’t graduate.

I’ve been on a kind of program… at the moment I’m training with 45lbs in my ruck, and with my combat boots. I’ve been going to the track and pretty much rucking for an increased amount each time. I did 5 miles on Wednesday, in 01:05. That’s a good time, considering that means I was 10 minutes under what 5 miles would be if I was doing 12 miles in exactly 3 hours, 01:15. I went again today, did 3 1/2, well under, too.

My current strategy consists of running for the first 10 minutes, then walking until I could feel my calfs again, then running until I can’t. I give myself a good buffer by pushing and running the first 10 min. By around 6 miles, I run again for an extended amount of time, then repeat the process.

I was looking for interesting photos, but I guess there really aren’t any regarding this stuff…

I’ll be heading to the track more and more… the only thing holding me back are my shoulders/upper back… pretty sore in the AM - just got to give me a little more recovery time I think.

Cool.

summer so far

Wed, 17 Jun 2009 04:05:09 GMT

Originally published at an attempt.. Please leave any comments there.

Back on LI for the next few weeks… be here until early July, then off to Fort Benning, Home of the Infantry, for two weeks, hopefully graduating from the Army Air Assault School. Nice.

Nice being home, nice seeing a bunch of people. While where was a bit of drama here and there, things are starting to calm down and I’m getting a bit more comfortable with each day. Just finding my place back here on the island while I train up.

Signed up at the local gym for the summer, getting in shape for the APFT come August… big stuff. Not really though. This will be a fun year, I’ll be an RA on the 6th floor of Whiteface Hall, one of two freshmen dorms on campus. I’ll be a MSIII in the ROTC program… big year; next summer I’m off to Fort Lewis, Washington for a month getting assessed and completing random training. awesome.

This post was more of an update than anything… I’ll posting more things this summer. I need something to keep my interest. Ideas? comment…

Peace.

ergh...

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 04:30:00 GMT

if anyone's interested,
transitioning from livejournal to my own blog
check ittt:
http://tonwerks.com/blog

prob will be updating there more often.
cool.

Changing it up

Thu, 05 Jun 2008 01:09:51 GMT

I'm going to change the direction of this Livejournal a bit, more towards a daily blog deal, highlighting things I've been looking at and such...

For starters, I'm considering making a switch from the Army Reserves to the Army National Guard:
It's a possibility influenced by my father. In the case of a domestic emergency I'd be mobilized, and I would still be able to be mobilized to go over seas. I'm going to talk to Lieutenant Colonel about it all... we'll see.

I'm heading to Target on Friday for an interview, and starting at Cornet (again) on Monday... the lack of income is seriously killing me. I've resulted to odd jobs from family and friends to make cash until now. The real killer is the fact that a 20 fills a quarter of my tank.

sucksss.

more interesting things next time.

New Music Video

Tue, 06 May 2008 23:57:55 GMT

Hello Hello,
New music video up - from my CMM229 Class as our final project

Checkkk ittt && LMK what you think:

also Facebook version here: http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=1008686261730

Thanks & Enjoy!

Fri, 02 May 2008 04:06:13 GMT

I have counseling tomorrow with Lieutenant Colonel @1000. I'm going to talk to him about contracting and my options.
I might be in the Reserves come September.
We'll see where this leads me.

It's so one sided... or maybe just not zeroed.

Mon, 14 Apr 2008 18:56:16 GMT

I had something else written but I've decided to wait on it.

Kind of makes you wonder, does a happy medium mean a collaboration or a compromise? Which one would you be happier with overall? When you balance something do you take and give to reach that ideal proportion or do you reweigh, retry and maybe change what you are weighing?

Mon, 07 Apr 2008 00:49:04 GMT

I've been pushing off writing something for a long time due to the definite disagreeing and clashing feelings and beliefs to the subject... so when I do get around to writing it, I hope people will learn to be open and respect my stand on something that is widely disregarded, viewed as sign of innocence or naiveness, and even looked down on socially in a College setting if stereotypes are followed and you take the standpoint of the overwhelming alcohol consuming majority social group of "typical college student."

BUT, I could hope, coming to the near close of a semester and school year, people have learned.

more to come soon...

Sun, 30 Mar 2008 03:48:46 GMT

So yesterday into today was the Relay for Life. The Army ROTC Program of SUNY Plattsburgh participated as a team and it was a great time. We originally were required to do shifts, and mine was from 12 midnight until 1 AM, but I decided to to get there around 9:30 and I walked until about 4. It was a great time overall, I really got to know some of the Cadets and had some really great conversations. On top of that, we were dressed in our ACU's so the military presence was nice for some people. I think we're really getting our name out there more, but I think that in order for people to know it's a GOOD name, we need to do something besides be like, "YO WE'RE OVER IN SYBLEY".

Anyway, directly after the sleep depriving 12 hour relay for life, I reported to Sybley hall for our Rehersal Field Training Exercise. We departed Plattsburgh at 0500 and arrived at UVM apparently late. Once we were there I was issued the rest of my missing equipment and we reported to Camp Johnson, VT for formation at 0830. Everything was out of order unfortunately but it all worked out. Alpha team, the one I was in, moved out after an equipment check and inspection was done and we started with a road rucksuck march down to our first Rally Point. Once we arrived we were told to put on any cold weather gear we had... it was freezing in Vermont. Not too much wind, but the longer you stand still, the colder you get and the less you could feel your fingers. Considering this was a rehearsal, we were issued unloaded Paintball guns as our weapon. When we came into contact with enemy we yelled "Bang Bang" to show we were firing. The entire purpose for the mission was for the higher level cadets to get some practice in regards to Squad and team leading. We started off our morning with a quick fire fight, continued down a trail where we set up another Rally point, outlined our mission further, a recon team was set out while I was set on security of our ORP. Once they got back we had to organize a plan for an Assault and Attack Plan. I was put on the supporting fire team where we laid down support as the Attack team flanked and took out the objective.

Overall it was a very interesting experience. Considering this was my first experience with the hierarchy being used, plans being drawn and such, it was all really interesting in seeing out it was all laid out. We had rehearsed some of the formations during PT in ROTC, but put into use it was really beneficial. We got back to Plattsburgh around 4 (After a stop at the mexican food stop of course) and when I got back, showered, changed and passed out for about 5 hours... crazy past 24 hours.

Yeah... a lot more detail to this but that was the basic idea... fun weekend though.
Laterrr

Sat, 29 Mar 2008 20:14:27 GMT

busy last two days.
mad busy.

Lots to write, but for now, I'm passing out.

Tue, 25 Mar 2008 01:27:37 GMT

After an amazing break, incredible Easter Sunday and a crappy ass Monday, I have come to the realization of a few things.

I need to shape up. I don't really get things done in a time efficient manner. I don't really get things done at all for that matter. I know I need to do them, and I have a system of organization and list of things I need to get done, but I don't do them.

Distractions certainly play a part in this, but it's deeper than that and I think I've finally realized this. The past week and Sunday have really made me think about my quality of life of now, compared to lets say the Summer, or anytime I'm home with friends or with the Salesians. If I strive to reach the point where I used to be to here at Plattsburgh, I swear I can do so much more. That would be the first readjustment I need to make.

After that is done, which mentally it is certainly coming along, I need to figure out if I'm truly happy doing what I'm doing. I've really been looking at Social Psychology lately and group mechanics.. it's always been something I've been interested in; it's part of my nature I guess, it's just what I do when I'm hanging around friends, observing like hell. Next year I'm going to be taking a class looking at Small Group Communication with my Human Communication professor which I'm really excited about. But overall, if TV Production is something I do enjoy doing, I need to do more of it. Much more... and do it well at that.

This won't happened overnight, but in all honest I'm ready to make a change because right now, it's just not cutting it. Just going to take one thing at a time, little by little, and maybe try a few new things here and there.

sounds like a game plan alright...

Sun, 23 Mar 2008 17:26:28 GMT

I needed this week more than anything in the world. What an unbelievable relief. I cannot wait for this summer and the rest of this school year... In the past week I've learned so much about myself and gained so much inspiration/motivation... I can't wait.

Time to move on.

Just think of this and me
as just a few of many things
to lie around, to clutter up your shelves
And I wish you weren't worth the wait
cause there's something's I'd like to say to you

And I don't think that you know what you've been missing
Cause I don't think that you know what you've been missing

And I dare you to forget
the marks you left across my neck
from those nights when we were both found at our best
Now I could make this obvious and you
you could deny me all in one breath
you could shrug me off your shoulders

And I don't think that you know what you've been missing
Cause I don't think that you know what you've been missing
And I don't think that you know,
I said I don't think you know,
I said I don't think that you know what you've been missing

Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
Hey lush, have fun
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
Hey lush, have fun

(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun (just forget me, it's that simple)

(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
(just forget me, it's that simple)
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
(just forget me, it's that simple)

Just forget me, it's that simple [11x]

(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun, it's the weekend
(just forget me, it's that simple)
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
Hey lush, have fun
(just forget me, it's that simple)

(oh I don't think that you know what you've been missing)
(no I don't think that you know what you've been missing)

Just forget me it's that simple

-TBS

Sat, 15 Mar 2008 20:13:22 GMT

This weekend was a nice getaway from the campus of Plattsburgh state, and much needed not to mention.

The ride up wasn't so bad, only about 40 minutes delayed (not bad for Amtrak Standards), and by the time I got home and the car was ready for me, it was about 12ish. I went out to a party at Krissy's friends house where I met some interesting people, and got to saw Krissy (hopefully not the last time before boot camp) and Lisa, too! been awhile since I've seen her, and she was doing very well... We got into 35mm and polaroid film types, and how carelessness in capturing "the moment" is evident these days. Ya going to make it worth a thousand word? Pause for a few seconds, plan the shot, line it up and snap. She was in a way protesting like I have been up here, she was using a Polaroid Camera. Film for a Polaroid is 15 - 20 dollars for 10-20 exposures... use it wisely. Also go to talk to this girl (Carrie?) from Cortland for awhile, nice conversation on volunteering and preschool classroom environments/interactions... Idk! It was nice just chilling and talking to random people for once, wasn't in a rush to get anywhere, do anything or worrying about anything...

The next day woke up late, got some lunch at Subway and visited the HS to watch the Musical kids rehearse. The play looked like it was going to be pretty good. Got to hang w/ Eddy and Kim for a bit, then went down to the pit to say Hi to G and Lou and Dan. Seems like they were all doing pretty well and the music was fun from the sounds of it.

----

Idk, I started writing this entry ahwile ago but now I don't really want to finish it. It was a really good weekend though.

I'm starting to consider the Army Reserves now. There's a program where I can participate in ROTC and the Reserves program, making a lot of money as well as guaranteeing a place in the Reserves and no Active duty if I get the contract the way I want it... If I join this program, I get placed into a unit in the Reserves next year getting paid 250 a month from the ROTC Program out of UVM, 350 a month through the GI Bill Kicker and Pay as a Sergeant per month. The Sergeant pay depends on the drills we go through during the month. Generally, once a month a weekend is spent for drills, meaning I'd be making 255 dollars a month for spending the weekend at a military installation... That's 855 dollars a month for spending one weekend out of a month. On top of this, they offer the GRFD scholarship which pays for full tuition and board, and up to 900 dollars a year for books... I'd be making upwards $1000 a month with a full scholarship in the end.

Also, during the summer we spend 2 weeks participating in a Field Training Exercise. AND I won't have to go through Basic Training thanks to the ROTC course - the first year is equivalent to the 9 weeks of Basic Training...

But... I'd have an 8 year contract, and will probably have to do SOME of it in active duty...

Idk a lot of things to think about, that's for sure...

Wish me luck!

Mon, 25 Feb 2008 02:27:46 GMT

need a new creative venue... I wish I could play the guitar, draw, write well, make cool diagrams, had a fancy artistic journal to write down ideas, had a video camera.

ohh the cliché's of an artistically bound college student...

Life Decisions... this is when my magic 8 ball would come handy...

Tue, 12 Feb 2008 16:47:01 GMT

Been an interesting past few weeks... A lot of things have been going through my mind and been considering, once again, many things.

The Reserves Officer Training Corps have been not bad. I'm waking up at 6:30 MWF to do PT with the team, Class on Tuesday, Leadership Labs on the weekends etc etc... It's a good experience for me and it has me thinking a lot lately. Both of my parents were in the military and I usually find myself questioning why? That's a big deal... you know? Here I am in College, apparently better off then they were... I am terribly grateful of that fact, mind you... but I feel I shouldn't take it for granted.

Thinking about my place here at Plattsburgh still is really mind boggling. I don't know what I hope to do once I get out of here, so in the mean time I've decided to just worry about now, do what I can now and make limited decision making in regards to what I'm doing 4 years for now... except for this: Enlisting.

I haven't yet, but I'm seriously considering it. By enlisting I am given a full scholarship covering all aspects of college including a monthly stipend of up to 500 dollars a month for books and other living expenses. The downside (if you consider it a "down"side)? 3 - 4 years of required active duty in the US Military as an officer, 2nd Lieutenant. What I do with those years is up to me however, so flight school might be in there somewhere...

We'll see what happens I guess and how the rest of the semester goes...

Otherwise I've joined Capoeira which is a lot of fun. I'm still in the beginning stages but it's a lot like gymnastics so it's been fun getting back into that, take a look:

ROTC

Tue, 29 Jan 2008 14:19:13 GMT

This will be an interesting 2nd Semester.

Here I come Army Reserves Officers' Training Corps of Plattsburgh State.

Sat, 26 Jan 2008 04:38:36 GMT

It's strange being with 7 other people 24 hours a day for two weeks straight, then alone in a dorm with only one other person on your floor and no friends in the building.

Strange indeed.

Are they really justified?

Wed, 09 Jan 2008 06:22:06 GMT

I feel a bit of a stressful next few weeks, and potentially next semester coming up. I have a lot of decisions to make and I'm beginning to have trouble deciding which variables i should take into consideration when doing the decision making.

I feel myself about to slip.. well, I guess this has been a feeling for awhile now actually. Just got to grip... in response to this, I'm seriously considering a potential sign up into the new ROTC program here at Plattsburgh. I need something a little more definite in my life which I can count on to help me directly and in the short run. While doing the program there's chance for both a physical and mental improvement.

I catch myself wandering a lot more than ever before. I tend to get really hungry late at night, at which point I do a quick Dunkin Donuts run right around the corner... while on these late night adventures driving to a destination I have full knowledge of, I get lost. Not on the road, but in my mind. I lose my sense of definiteness and start considering and rethinking everything. I wonder if this is right for me, I wonder if I'm in the right spot of my life. Does where I want to be 5 years from now justify what I'm doing? Where do I even want to be 5 years from now? Why do I continue to do these volunteer programs and events? Is there something specific I'm looking for in these ventures of possible self fulfillment? What am I even fulfilling for that matter? in reality, who is self?

I surprised myself a few times this vacation. People have a pretty interesting idea of who I am sometimes... Am I this kid who goes to school in Plattsburgh and wants to do something in TV Production whom doesn't drink or smoke because of the way I was brought up or has a set of strict moral standards which society apparently doesn't agree with? Or am I even a mystery to some people? Is there nothing more to me than that in other peoples minds? Do you all think you really know me? Do you even care?

I think the the environment you grow up in has a lot to do with who you are. You can experience things by the age of 18 that most people don't go through or even get until the age of 25. A good judgment of character probably has to be the number one edge I have over others, besides the obvious other. I'm an observer. I sit back and take notes on everything going on around me. Not necessarily drawing conclusions on people, but just getting a better idea of what everyones deal is. Do they act out? When? Why? Who needs the attention the most and does their personality justify the need? There's a difference between needing attention and crying out for attention. Who disagrees the most? Who actually verbalizes their disagreement the most? where does the drama come from, and most importantly what are the reasons for the drama? All of these say a lot about a group of people. These are certainly not the only things i take notice... but especially considering where we are in our lives, wow does it say a lot?

I'm going to end this for now and potentially add and or finish it later on. I have a lot more to write. but for now....

We look around for signs of what to do next,
some to their parents, others to the one above.
The end question really is if the ends really do justify the means.
Is the result really worth the work and journey? What's more important?
The journey itself or the accomplishment at the end.
Is that yellow brick road you're walking on helping you more than you've thought,
or is the prize at the end the only push you have?
You keep working at hopes to finish what you started
but you over look the most important part when you finally succeed:
the journey which built you up to what you are now.

Wed, 26 Dec 2007 06:10:36 GMT

People are so ridiculous it's near comical...
Actually, in retrospect, it's hilarious.

I hope everyone had a lovely holiday.

And I just wanted to apologize for the lack of recent entries; things have been busy and a lot has been changing. I don't really see it necessary nor even sensible any more to post a majority of the stuff considering it's a mix of personal things which in its own would end up becoming a symbol of web culture irony.

However, I'll be posting a short update soon keeping in mind the fact that people would read and past judgment just because it's thrown in front of them regardless if they cared/asked..... knowing someone at least read it will keep me sound at night.

Back to work in 8 hours.
Goodnight All.

Whats been up.

Fri, 09 Nov 2007 16:09:39 GMT

Hm.
Update I suppose.

So basically I've been pretty busy. I got my schedule for next semester all set. Pretty sweet. By the end of this year I'll have 36 Credits done.
I've been keeping busy with the weekends... this past weekend I went to Albany with some friends. We went Saturday and then Sunday night we went to Clifton Park for a show.

I finished my petition for my place on the ballot for Student Association Senate. We'll see how that goes.
I've been helping out in the Newman Association, helped rake up some leaves last Saturday, and was going to help with the Bake Sale but they canceled my times for whatever reason.
Been keeping involved with Project Help, I got accepted into the Winter Alternative Break. I'll be leaving Long Island 2 weeks early for a service program in New Jersey and Connecticut. I'll be helping out at a preschooler Head Start program and a Salvation Army/Soup Kitchen.
In Circle K, not much has been really going on... they don't really seem as organized as I had hoped... meetings generally last 10 minutes and nothing usually happens. Maybe we could try something else besides just the normal community service options Project HELP offers us...
Classes are fine I suppose... I don't know. Nothing new really happening.
Getting kind of boring up here actually.
I have my solo coming up for French Horn, playing Mozarts Concerto for Horn.
Symphonic Bands concert is next Thursday, Brass Ensemble concert is coming up in a few weeks.
Still looking for a job.. resorting to an online source of income. Hopefully Pete and I come up with something good this time.
There's talk of a basement show at a house around here tomorrow. Might go and check that out.

I don't know what else to write.
I think I'm more frustrated with the fact that there's rarely anything for me to look forward to up here. Yeah, I'm looking forward to going home and such.... but up here I keep losing the drive, because there's no place significant for me to drive to.

We'll see what happens I guess.

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 15:46:04 GMT

make up your mind.
I'm not sure if I believe you 100%.

2nd Semester Schedule

Wed, 07 Nov 2007 15:38:08 GMT

Monday:
9 - 9.50: Basic Audio Production
11 - 11.50: Intro to Film & Lit
12 - 12.50: US Civ Since 1877

Tuesday:
1.30 - 2.45: Math in Context
3 - 4.15: Intro to Human Communication

Wednesday:
9 - 9.50: Basic Audio Production
11 - 11.50: Intro to Film & Lit
12 - 12.50: US Civ Since 1877
3 - 5.50: Basic Planning and Proudcing for TV
7 - 9.30: Intro to Film and Lit

Thursday:
1.30 - 2.45: Math in Context
3 - 4.15: Intro to Human Communication

Friday:
11 - 11.50: Intro to Film & Lit
12 - 12.50: US Civ Since 1877

18 Credits, No band yet, No Brass Ensemble.
Fun,

Mon, 29 Oct 2007 05:24:50 GMT

I'm an idiot.
I insulted the only person in a 350 mile radius whom I feel even mildly comfortable around.
I'm sorry Christie.

Anyway,
I'm not emo.
promise.

I got my poster and CD today... I was pretty happy.
Poster from The Sound of Animals Fighting. Check them out definitely.. we're talking an Anthony Green and Craig Owens Duo. Not messing around.
The CD was the new 27 song Album from Say Anything, absolutely amazing.

I also received a letter from Roxy. Wow I miss her a lot. Maybe I'll make my way down to Geneseo someday some how. Need to find a way to Burlington and catch a plane. Or something. But I miss you.

I'm going to get this all done and taken care of... Not going to mess around.

I need new headphones. These iPod ones suck.

Alright, too random for people's eyes.
goodnight all.

Thu, 25 Oct 2007 03:34:08 GMT

i think i might need help.

i'm going to spend the next 30 minutes outside wondering why it got so cold all of a sudden,
why is everything still drenched in tears,
how long will this feeling of a good thing gone sad last?

bring on the monochrome dis-functioning TV signal already,
it's about time we froze to death,
about time reality got a little colder.